~Don't judge me~
Might as well write something now and post it, because I am feeling particularly angsty. Most of it has to do with my husband and once again I ask myself.. why did I not just stay with Mel? At least she didn't make me insecure.. even if Alexi does make me insecure unknowingly. However it differs because when I tell him it makes me insecure, he rips into me.. telling me that I am paranoid and silly.

I am sure all you lesbians out there are saying.. "Shoulda stayed with females"

Yeah, well Alexi has a -very- feminine soul.. and I recognize that.. but he -is- male. Especially when it comes to porn and I am not saying all porn, but porn involving real women and he says they are not real.. but somewhere they do exist. This is just my logic. Anime porn.. no problem there and yaoi is nice.

I just called him up and apologized for being a bitch.

Mainly because I hate conflict.. even though I get into more then my share of it.

On the plus side, I finally got a radio so I can listen to music at work.. I smote those who oppose me with the goddess Utada Hikaru!

He just came into the office, bearing 3 roses and the clock that I wanted.. the "Three Monkeys" clock. (Has the three "See no evil, Hear no Evil, Speak no evil" monkeys surrounding a tree that happens to have a clock at the center) I feel loved.

I am sorry for being a bitch.. really I am.